Busyness

Last night I was reading my Parenting magazine and most of the articles made reference to how busy we are all the time and yet, each article talked about carving out more time for something. Take exercise for instance. One of the Parenting employees said that she was a single mother, working full time with a 2 1/2 hour commute. She wanted to spend more time with her 4 yr old son but ya know, she had to make some time to lose weight or tone up, whichever it was. It was insane.
So then today, Matti tells me that they're going to start building another farm at the beginning of the year, depending on the weather and when they can get started, and he'd like me to work 4 hours a day, and Riv would need to be left with a babysitter. Not sure how I feel about all this. I don't want to become one of those women who are so BUSY all the time that it's a feat just to spend time with my little guy. Decisions, decisions, decisions...

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Smirk! I was just delighting myself reading some smitten kitchen posts, specifically one about vanilla bean pear sauce for the baby which attracted my attention since I have some pears rattling around in the frig. Anyway some clever Alice left a comment about how she hopes to be a "hippie dippie" mom making her own baby food but will more likely count being vertical and coherent as a victory. I thoroughly enjoyed that as I feel rather like that this am. I had some big goals about getting up early and getting things DONE today. Alas River decided to wake up around 1:00 and eat. Then he slept in bed with me until 4:00 when I decided he really needed to get back in his crib. I finally got him to stay sleeping at 5:00. Then I was too awake to sleep myself (I really should have got up at this point and started roasted the squash, I know. I just kept thinking I would fall asleep at any moment.) and Riv woke up at 5:45. I gave up and let him stay in bed at that point.

Jeana came over and worked on coating more ceiling with me last night. I only have about half the boards left to coat. :) Jeremy told me yesterday that all the corbels need two coats of paint now. Ugh.

After working with Jeana yesterday, I was so glad to have my own sisters. Not that there's anything wrong with her, I just realize that I need girls who are like me :) and that I can yammer to about interesting things. So part of the reason I couldn't sleep last night is because I had this feeling that God, being perverse, would take away the people that I love the most. I couldn't stop obsessing over it, even though I know that God is not perverse. Oh, the thoughts that control one's mind in the wee hours of the morning.